The Life of Bryan

A week ago I started the Atkins Nutritional Approach. It was hard the first couple of days. But after I got over my carb addiction it has been rather easy. When I weighed on Saturday Jan 10 I weighed 257.5 lbs. When I weighed this morning I weighed 249 lbs. 8 POUNDS!!! 8 lbs in one week. I am so amazed. I know I will reach my goal weight of 157 lbs. Only 92 lbs to go.

Ted began a series on grace on Sunday. His first sermon was quite good. It was a good reminder. I agreed with everything he said. Grace means free. It means you don’t have to pay for it, you never get a bill, and you can never pay it back. It amazes me how many people spend their lives trying to pay God back when we don’t have to pay him back. We shouldn’t even try to pay God back. It is an insult and it cheapens grace. The cross ceases to be an act of grace when we must pay God back for it. When we attempt to pay God back the cross becomes a business transaction.

It is also the free nature of grace that is so glorifying to God. Grace shows that God is supplying us with everything we need. It glorifies him because it removes all foundations that we might be able to boast on. We didn’t pay for it. We can’t boast that we paid for it. We can only boast in God’s grace and glorify God’s resourcefulness. Grace glorifies God and that is why it is so magnificant.

I am really looking forward to Ted’s sermons on grace. I am sure they will awesome.

Ted began a series on grace on Sunday. His first sermon was quite good. It was a good reminder. I agreed with everything he said. Grace means free. It means you don’t have to pay for it, you never get a bill, and you can never pay it back. It amazes me how many people spend their lives trying to pay God back when we don’t have to pay him back. We shouldn’t even try to pay God back. It is an insult and it cheapens grace. The cross ceases to be an act of grace when we must pay God back for it. When we attempt to pay God back the cross becomes a business transaction.

It is also the free nature of grace that is so glorifying to God. Grace shows that God is supplying us with everything we need. It glorifies him because it removes all foundations that we might be able to boast on. We didn’t pay for it. We can’t boast that we paid for it. We can only boast in God’s grace and glorify God’s resourcefulness. Grace glorifies God and that is why it is so magnificant.

I am really looking forward to Ted’s sermons on grace. I am sure they will awesome.

I was flipping through channels last night on the toob and I came across a movie on Cinemax. I quickly realized it was soft porn and moved on to another channel. Tonight a thought hit me. What is the point of soft porn? Hard porn is much more arousing. I have seen it. I am not afraid to admit it. So what’ the point in the soft stuff? Granted, I wish all the stuff would go away as it is disgusting. But really, what is the point of soft porn, I think it is pointless.

I was flipping through channels last night on the toob and I came across a movie on Cinemax. I quickly realized it was soft porn and moved on to another channel. Tonight a thought hit me. What is the point of soft porn? Hard porn is much more arousing. I have seen it. I am not afraid to admit it. So what’ the point in the soft stuff? Granted, I wish all the stuff would go away as it is disgusting. But really, what is the point of soft porn, I think it is pointless.

Well it’s been over two weeks since I quit smoking. It has been difficult, but I have managed to make it with the strength that Christ provides. I know He will continue to give me the strength to carry on. I also started the Atkins Diet on Saturday (Jan 3, 2004). I won’t be easy to control my carbs. So many of the things I like have bread in them. Hamburgers, pasta, potatoes and many other things I won’t be able to eat for a while. However, there are lots of other things I can eat that I do like. Cheese, meat (all that I want), butter (real butter not that fake margarine stuff) are all things I can eat while I am controlling my carbs.

I finally decided to change my diet completely after the nice shirt my sister got me for Christmas didn’t fit. I’m tired of being overweight. I’m tired of not liking what I see when I look in the mirror. I want to be proud of my appearance. I don’t want to be embarrassed to take off my shirt at the beach or in the locker room. I say that I don’t like swimming. But that isn’t true. I do enjoy it. I just don’t do it because I am too embarrassed to take off my shirt and I look stupid swimming in a t-shirt.

I haven’t met with my small group in over a month. I miss it and I hope we meet again this week. I also wish I could make new best friends. But it is hard to do when I live in Cedar Hill and all of my current friends live 30 miles away in Fort Worth. I was hoping that this small group would help kindle some good friendships, but we have met so few times it is hard to make new friends. And I fear rejection so much that I am not willing to risk calling someone and asking if they want to go do something. I wish making friends was easier.

Work is about the same. I still work at T.E.S.S. and it is still just as frustrating as ever. I sure wish I could find another job sometime soon. Preferably one in Fort Worth or in Tarrant County at least so I keep my travels to one side of the metroplex.

So that’s kinda what’s been going on in my life for a while. I should really update this more often. Perhaps I can resolve to do that this year.

Well it’s been over two weeks since I quit smoking. It has been difficult, but I have managed to make it with the strength that Christ provides. I know He will continue to give me the strength to carry on. I also started the Atkins Diet on Saturday (Jan 3, 2004). I won’t be easy to control my carbs. So many of the things I like have bread in them. Hamburgers, pasta, potatoes and many other things I won’t be able to eat for a while. However, there are lots of other things I can eat that I do like. Cheese, meat (all that I want), butter (real butter not that fake margarine stuff) are all things I can eat while I am controlling my carbs.

I finally decided to change my diet completely after the nice shirt my sister got me for Christmas didn’t fit. I’m tired of being overweight. I’m tired of not liking what I see when I look in the mirror. I want to be proud of my appearance. I don’t want to be embarrassed to take off my shirt at the beach or in the locker room. I say that I don’t like swimming. But that isn’t true. I do enjoy it. I just don’t do it because I am too embarrassed to take off my shirt and I look stupid swimming in a t-shirt.

I haven’t met with my small group in over a month. I miss it and I hope we meet again this week. I also wish I could make new best friends. But it is hard to do when I live in Cedar Hill and all of my current friends live 30 miles away in Fort Worth. I was hoping that this small group would help kindle some good friendships, but we have met so few times it is hard to make new friends. And I fear rejection so much that I am not willing to risk calling someone and asking if they want to go do something. I wish making friends was easier.

Work is about the same. I still work at T.E.S.S. and it is still just as frustrating as ever. I sure wish I could find another job sometime soon. Preferably one in Fort Worth or in Tarrant County at least so I keep my travels to one side of the metroplex.

So that’s kinda what’s been going on in my life for a while. I should really update this more often. Perhaps I can resolve to do that this year.